Its a hell of a thing.
A girl, a woman really, has spent so much time being strong for herself and for her child. Doing things on her own, making all the choices and hard decisions.
So why is it that this hard working woman, mother of one, can't figure out how to make the choices and hard decisions when it comes to her first romance in 5 years?
The say that in 2011 one in eight relationships were founded online. Its within this crazy, kinky, slightly over dramatic, and maybe just a smidgen creepy world that I met Him. My man. My lover. My heart.
He's infuriating, slow moving with matters of the heart, slightly conceited, highly intelligent, wonderfully dominant, and attractive man. In some ways he reminds me so much of my father that I laugh, and I mean full on belly laugh.In other ways he gives me things I have never had from a man in my adult life.
The man has a voice that puts butterflies in my tummy. I read somewhere once that a woman was trying to describe 'the feeling' she got when her man used 'that voice' on her. She likened it to her stomach going ka-thunk. I have to say that I agree with that; the ka-thunk is definitely what I feel when I hear his voice.
Love.
He has my heart. And my mind. He's the first thought of the morning and my last thought before I go to bed.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
new year.. new you, errr .. new me?
OH man!!!
I decided to wait until Jan 3rd to begin any type of New Years resolutions, and today was a day that will go down in infamy .. I stepped on the scale for the first time in quite a few months and realized why I'm all but living in sweat pants. Holy freaking cow... almost literally it seems!!
I have a background on my computer that has a random faded pic of a girl who's thin in a stretching pose and it says, 2011 the last fat year of my life and that's a promise. Well it's time to make, AND KEEP, that promise to myself. The scale does not lie, my clothing size does not lie, my ability to move & stretch & walk up a flight of stairs does not lie.
So the question is: how do i do it?
There are so many options, one google search yields so many results I can't figure out who's right and who's wrong. Everyone I talk to has a different view on the subject and a different past. Do i log every calorie that goes in my mouth and keep it under a certain amount of calories? If so how many calories should I intake? Shoudl I cut carbs, or cut fat? Go paleo or Weight Watchers? Do I take a picture of every meal instead of writing it all down? How about I don't eat anything that has more than 45% of it's calories from fat? These are just a few ideas rolling through my head on the food subject.
The fitness subject is a different subject all together. I MUST MOVE and I must do it at least 3x a week. We have a bike in the basement and I WILL start there. I'd like to be ready to run again, even if just for intervals of time, when the winter is over.
I'm hungry.
I started wrigin this post because well I needed to occupy my hands and my mind with something other than food. My stomache is letting me know that I did not give it the 'normal' amount of food that it would like and now I'm being terrorized. Gum made the problem worse. Water should help right?
I decided to count my calories today by adding everything I ate to myfitnesspal.com that way i can track food and activity in one place. We shall see if this is how I decide to continue.
I decided to wait until Jan 3rd to begin any type of New Years resolutions, and today was a day that will go down in infamy .. I stepped on the scale for the first time in quite a few months and realized why I'm all but living in sweat pants. Holy freaking cow... almost literally it seems!!
I have a background on my computer that has a random faded pic of a girl who's thin in a stretching pose and it says, 2011 the last fat year of my life and that's a promise. Well it's time to make, AND KEEP, that promise to myself. The scale does not lie, my clothing size does not lie, my ability to move & stretch & walk up a flight of stairs does not lie.
So the question is: how do i do it?
There are so many options, one google search yields so many results I can't figure out who's right and who's wrong. Everyone I talk to has a different view on the subject and a different past. Do i log every calorie that goes in my mouth and keep it under a certain amount of calories? If so how many calories should I intake? Shoudl I cut carbs, or cut fat? Go paleo or Weight Watchers? Do I take a picture of every meal instead of writing it all down? How about I don't eat anything that has more than 45% of it's calories from fat? These are just a few ideas rolling through my head on the food subject.
The fitness subject is a different subject all together. I MUST MOVE and I must do it at least 3x a week. We have a bike in the basement and I WILL start there. I'd like to be ready to run again, even if just for intervals of time, when the winter is over.
I'm hungry.
I started wrigin this post because well I needed to occupy my hands and my mind with something other than food. My stomache is letting me know that I did not give it the 'normal' amount of food that it would like and now I'm being terrorized. Gum made the problem worse. Water should help right?
I decided to count my calories today by adding everything I ate to myfitnesspal.com that way i can track food and activity in one place. We shall see if this is how I decide to continue.
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